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All kinds of bickering and name-calling and in-fighting have swamped the gay American blogs recently. We’ve used slurs against straight people, against each other. There is even a new commentary on The Advocate called “Putrid Perez.” We’ve resorted to calling each other “‘faggot’” and “‘gay’” in single and double quotation marks because that makes slurring each other cute and meta.

We’ve hunted for one leader after another, and as we’ve caught each one, we’ve thrown each one back for being too small. We’ve called each other hypocrites. We’ve been hypocrites. We’ve become hypocrites.

And outside of this queasiness has been a gay, the gay Pakistani blogger, Jalal Uddin, who describes himself as a “20-something sarcastic, psychotic, socialist, homosexual blogger from Karachi.” And this lone gay blogger has stopped writing because he is afraid:

I guess all of you guys will have to get used to the fact that I will, from now on, be blogging very irregularly, as in once a quarter or something. Work and other things in life have just become very extreme and do not allow enough time for blogging . . . one of the reasons for not blogging for the past three months would be the fear elicited by the fact that my blog has been quoted in both an Indian newspaper / online news source, and now and American one. The closet door is being banged at very hard. For all the actions where I have come out of the closet to my family and friends does not mean that I am ready to do it officially. Not in Pakistan. I can not. Sorry. So, since this blog has started coming into international media showcasing Pakistani homosexuals, I would have to request you people to at least not try to knock on the closet door.

From this I would wonder why we even use the term closet door? Why?

And I will leave you to that.

Oh and yes, the guy who plays Kirk in the new Star Trek, Chris Pine. Fucking yummy.

What a loss his voice must be to other Pakistani LGBT people. In a country where homosexuality is a punishable offense, this gay blogger wrote about his gay life until he became too well-known. He wrote until he had to stop. And he stopped writing because he was afraid.

And I wonder how many times he was called “‘faggot.’”